Most everyday I walk Emily to and from school. I really enjoy this captivated time. There is no worry of traffic, no phone, no radio/CD to distract us from sweet conversation. We talk about almost everything.

Yesterday when we were walking home, she told me that a cricket had crawled up her pants leg. eekkkkkkkk! Creep-ola! Of course I said where were you???On the playground? She said no, it was during our "Lock Down" I said wait a minute what in the world is a "Lock Down"? She said oh, you know when we have "Fire Drills" and "Tornado Drills"? Oh, yeah, sure honey.

Well, a "Lock Down" is where in case a bad man comes to our school with a gun or something. OH! I see, I said. WOW! What did you guys do? Well, she said...mom remember when you were working in that room in the library? I said oh, the work room for the auction? Yes, that one. Well, we had to go in there, and hide under some tables and behind some shelf things. I asked, was it kind of scary honey?

She said no, not really. I was concentrating on that cricket crawling on my leg inside my pants! Uugghhh! I said, Yeah that is pretty creepy huh? UH HUH…she said.

I was shocked at first, then I remembered we do live in a fallen messed up world, so why wouldn't we be incorporating these drills, with all the recent(as in these last few decades)tragic incidences that have happened in our schools.

I was telling Laura after church on the way home, and she OH, MY GOSH! We had to do that too!! It was sooo scary momma! We had to tape paper over our little windows on our doors then hide under and behind stuff on one side of the class room, so they couldn't see us. We were instructed that we couldn't open the door NO MATTER WHAT! Even if Mr. Potts (the principle) banged on the door and said open up for real it's me Mr. Potts!!

Well, her class is adjoined with another class, THEY didn't do what they were suppose to do, so, Mr. Potts(being the bad guy) was let in their class, which then allowed him access to her class. When he got through to our class I SCREAMED SO LOUD momma, I was sooo scared! I said, well at least you didn't have a cricket climbing up your leg! (Just kidding! No way did I say that to Laura!)

Seriously, it is a real possibility! It gives me chills to think about it! I know this sounds crazy, but if I had to choose the fate of my children, I would much rather someone else take their life this way or even while serving our Lord. (Any type of mission work whether it be here or across the sea, teaching about the Lord or showing people the Lord) I just pray that it's not because of their mistakes, or drugs, alcohol, suicide, reckless driving, anything they could do that would be against God's will.

That would do way more than give me chills, it would relentlessly grieve my heart!
Oh, the craziness of life! Everyday I run out to the battlefield for John, Laura, and Emily! I can't imagine not giving them over to the Lord daily! I also pray for our leaders, who are leading our children! I do so now, out of the discipline of trust.

It reminds me daily to place at His feet my concerns and worries, then walk away from is throne empty, that He will have all of my heart to disciple and fill up throughout the day! I need to be refined by the Lord from my human-earthly thinking and living. I say it over and over, It's means nothing to believe in God, with out believing God! Yet, that's what I reflect when I worry, or try to manipulate things claiming, that...because it's good it must be His will. Thus reminding me that the enemy of the best is good. Let's not sell out for our good, and allow God to do His best!


I love you, and pray that we remember Philippians 1:6 "...being confident of this very thing, He who has begun a good work in you will complete it..."

May God refine the hearts of His people, so that we can have full confidence to actively proclaim His sweet promises.