Most everyday I walk Emily to and from school. I really enjoy this captivated time. There is no worry of traffic, no phone, no radio/CD to distract us from sweet conversation. We talk about almost everything.

Yesterday when we were walking home, she told me that a cricket had crawled up her pants leg. eekkkkkkkk! Creep-ola! Of course I said where were you???On the playground? She said no, it was during our "Lock Down" I said wait a minute what in the world is a "Lock Down"? She said oh, you know when we have "Fire Drills" and "Tornado Drills"? Oh, yeah, sure honey.

Well, a "Lock Down" is where in case a bad man comes to our school with a gun or something. OH! I see, I said. WOW! What did you guys do? Well, she said...mom remember when you were working in that room in the library? I said oh, the work room for the auction? Yes, that one. Well, we had to go in there, and hide under some tables and behind some shelf things. I asked, was it kind of scary honey?

She said no, not really. I was concentrating on that cricket crawling on my leg inside my pants! Uugghhh! I said, Yeah that is pretty creepy huh? UH HUH…she said.

I was shocked at first, then I remembered we do live in a fallen messed up world, so why wouldn't we be incorporating these drills, with all the recent(as in these last few decades)tragic incidences that have happened in our schools.

I was telling Laura after church on the way home, and she OH, MY GOSH! We had to do that too!! It was sooo scary momma! We had to tape paper over our little windows on our doors then hide under and behind stuff on one side of the class room, so they couldn't see us. We were instructed that we couldn't open the door NO MATTER WHAT! Even if Mr. Potts (the principle) banged on the door and said open up for real it's me Mr. Potts!!

Well, her class is adjoined with another class, THEY didn't do what they were suppose to do, so, Mr. Potts(being the bad guy) was let in their class, which then allowed him access to her class. When he got through to our class I SCREAMED SO LOUD momma, I was sooo scared! I said, well at least you didn't have a cricket climbing up your leg! (Just kidding! No way did I say that to Laura!)

Seriously, it is a real possibility! It gives me chills to think about it! I know this sounds crazy, but if I had to choose the fate of my children, I would much rather someone else take their life this way or even while serving our Lord. (Any type of mission work whether it be here or across the sea, teaching about the Lord or showing people the Lord) I just pray that it's not because of their mistakes, or drugs, alcohol, suicide, reckless driving, anything they could do that would be against God's will.

That would do way more than give me chills, it would relentlessly grieve my heart!
Oh, the craziness of life! Everyday I run out to the battlefield for John, Laura, and Emily! I can't imagine not giving them over to the Lord daily! I also pray for our leaders, who are leading our children! I do so now, out of the discipline of trust.

It reminds me daily to place at His feet my concerns and worries, then walk away from is throne empty, that He will have all of my heart to disciple and fill up throughout the day! I need to be refined by the Lord from my human-earthly thinking and living. I say it over and over, It's means nothing to believe in God, with out believing God! Yet, that's what I reflect when I worry, or try to manipulate things claiming, that...because it's good it must be His will. Thus reminding me that the enemy of the best is good. Let's not sell out for our good, and allow God to do His best!


I love you, and pray that we remember Philippians 1:6 "...being confident of this very thing, He who has begun a good work in you will complete it..."

May God refine the hearts of His people, so that we can have full confidence to actively proclaim His sweet promises.

Two things...
1. Are you as confused as I am, when you read the nutrition facts on food labels? I mean for the life of me, I cannot figure out the whole fat grams deal! Okay, I see the fat grams broken down in saturated fats...trans fat...mono fat...poly fat.. etc...(whatever they all are!)

Anyways how come it never adds up to the TOTAL FAT GRAMS? REALLY! It just baffles me! There is always MORE in the total fat grams than there are listed under the individual ones! Where do the rest of them come from???

Okay then

2. We have an office chair at my little built in kitchen desk. I've asked the girls to pull or push me in it around the house. Emily has, but Laura just wants to sit in my lap and we scoot together in it. In fact we used to have two chairs and Laura in one of her silly moments scooting us in it broke the crazy thing! HA HA HA it really was funny. We were laughing so hard. ANYWAYS...Today Joel pushed me real fast in it around the house... weeeeeee! It was so fun! Except sometimes it was sort of scary when he would twirl me kinda fast...it felt like I was going to get slung off!!!

Well, that's it for today. (hey at least I posted..It's been a while for some of you!!!" Oh, there is a #3

3. I hope you guys remember that how we love...makes a difference!